Fantastic weather 

The weather has been amazing this past week and I’m really glad for it. It gives me the feeling that summer is right around the corner. I was out with a few friends almost all day yesterday just to enjoy the fantastic weather outside. It was really nice to spend yesterday with some good company. The weather was cold under a shade, but once the sun is shining on you, you’d think that it is already summer. 

This photo was taken today, but the weather yesterday was no worse. I even saw a few people wearing shorts and just in t-shirts or tops. Unfortunately, I was not one of them. I freeze too easily. Just wait till the weather temperature is above 20 degrees to see me showing all of you more skin. 

On my way to a better me

I know that it’s been a really long while since I updated this blog. Over the past few months I have been putting all my focus on school. I must say that I have done a really good job, so I don’t regret it at all. Life has been punching me down until I just didn’t have other choices than to stand back up. This is why and where all my precious time went. It all made me happy and proud of myself. 

There’s no denying the fact that it hasn’t been easy to go back to school again. It was a lousy start, but I have done a great job no matter how hard life has been. I might have lost the most important person in my life, but I found new friends who would stick by me and point me in the right direction. Life is unpredictable, I see that now. But all you have to do is keep on going. It might be good to look back and see how far you have gone, but we all know that we can never live in the past. Just learn from it and use it as a tool to be better than you once was. 

Everything reminds me of you

Your face is everywhere. Whenever I see you, there is a lot of hope that you are home sitting on you spot singing beautifully. I hear your voice louder and clearer now that you’re gone…your beautiful genuine laughter and the contagious smile you give everyone. Everything reminds me of you.

There’s so much I want to share with you. I don’t even know where to begin. I hope you know all that now. You’re the person I can talk about anything. You thought me how to deal with life. 

Looking back, I realized that everything you did, you did it all because that’s the kind of person you are. You never ask for anything in return. Maybe that’s the reason why you’ve been given a lot of blessings. 

Looking at your picture now, I see that you are peaceful. I guess, you’ve have enough and had all you’ve ever wanted in life. You’ve with your late husband now, my beloved grandfather. He must be waiting for you on the other side.

I miss you 

I tried so hard to sleep last night. Hoping that the pain will eventually fade when I wake up and face a new. It’s still there, so raw and too much to bear. I miss her too much everyday, but now I even miss her more. I never thought I would miss someone this much. 

My grandmother took care of me half my life. Up until I came to Norway to be with my mother and my family here. I admit that I didn’t call her enough, because that’s how I coup. I avoided things that would hurt and even miss her more. Now, it’s not working anymore. I just need to get this off my shoulders. 

She holds the biggest part of my life. Everything I did and do is to make her proud of me. I will always do that, now that she’s not around. 

It’s hard to think that the next time I visit my family in the Philippines, she wouldn’t be there to meet me with tears and tight hugs and kisses. She was the person I always look forward the most to see. 

She was there on my first day of kindergarden, my first day in elementary and high school. Many other firsts actually. She was just an elementary graduate, but the smartest, kindest, giving person I know. All I am now is because of her. She made me the person I am today, using herself as the best role model anyone could have. 

She will always be in my heart. The most beautiful person I know inside and out. 

Rest in peace 

When I first found out about it, I just couldn’t believe it. I had to ask again to get it confirmed. Yes, I heard right: The person I value the most is gone. She hasn’t just taken a short trip far away. My grandmother is not coming back. 

I knew this would happen one day, but never thought it would happen this soon. Maybe not, but it will always be too soon for me. I will never be ready for it. 

It’s hard to believe that I can never see you again. I can’t even come at your funeral. I apologize for that. 
Thank you for everything you’ve done to me. Thank you for taking care of me. You were always there. 

You’re in a better place now. You’ve suffered enough and it was time for you to rest. 

I will always love you. Rest in peace ❤

Pancake maniac

Yes! This post is about pancakes. Everyone has got to love it. Don’t you agree? I can literally eat it all day everyday. This is basically my meal before I go to the gym. I always make sure to make more, for after the workout. It’s easy to make and not at all time consuming. What more can you ask for? 

Vacation of the year

A lot have happened on my one month vacation to the Philippines with my whole family. I’ve meet relatives I didn’t know existed. we got to know each other and we just all clicked. My days were filled with laughter, joy and lots and lots of jokes. Best of all, I met this beautiful person again after several  years.

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