Everything reminds me of you

Your face is everywhere. Whenever I see you, there is a lot of hope that you are home sitting on you spot singing beautifully. I hear your voice louder and clearer now that you’re gone…your beautiful genuine laughter and the contagious smile you give everyone. Everything reminds me of you.

There’s so much I want to share with you. I don’t even know where to begin. I hope you know all that now. You’re the person I can talk about anything. You thought me how to deal with life. 

Looking back, I realized that everything you did, you did it all because that’s the kind of person you are. You never ask for anything in return. Maybe that’s the reason why you’ve been given a lot of blessings. 

Looking at your picture now, I see that you are peaceful. I guess, you’ve have enough and had all you’ve ever wanted in life. You’ve with your late husband now, my beloved grandfather. He must be waiting for you on the other side.

I miss you 

I tried so hard to sleep last night. Hoping that the pain will eventually fade when I wake up and face a new. It’s still there, so raw and too much to bear. I miss her too much everyday, but now I even miss her more. I never thought I would miss someone this much. 

My grandmother took care of me half my life. Up until I came to Norway to be with my mother and my family here. I admit that I didn’t call her enough, because that’s how I coup. I avoided things that would hurt and even miss her more. Now, it’s not working anymore. I just need to get this off my shoulders. 

She holds the biggest part of my life. Everything I did and do is to make her proud of me. I will always do that, now that she’s not around. 

It’s hard to think that the next time I visit my family in the Philippines, she wouldn’t be there to meet me with tears and tight hugs and kisses. She was the person I always look forward the most to see. 

She was there on my first day of kindergarden, my first day in elementary and high school. Many other firsts actually. She was just an elementary graduate, but the smartest, kindest, giving person I know. All I am now is because of her. She made me the person I am today, using herself as the best role model anyone could have. 

She will always be in my heart. The most beautiful person I know inside and out. 

Rest in peace 

When I first found out about it, I just couldn’t believe it. I had to ask again to get it confirmed. Yes, I heard right: The person I value the most is gone. She hasn’t just taken a short trip far away. My grandmother is not coming back. 

I knew this would happen one day, but never thought it would happen this soon. Maybe not, but it will always be too soon for me. I will never be ready for it. 

It’s hard to believe that I can never see you again. I can’t even come at your funeral. I apologize for that. 
Thank you for everything you’ve done to me. Thank you for taking care of me. You were always there. 

You’re in a better place now. You’ve suffered enough and it was time for you to rest. 

I will always love you. Rest in peace ❤

Pancake maniac

Yes! This post is about pancakes. Everyone has got to love it. Don’t you agree? I can literally eat it all day everyday. This is basically my meal before I go to the gym. I always make sure to make more, for after the workout. It’s easy to make and not at all time consuming. What more can you ask for? 

Vacation of the year

A lot have happened on my one month vacation to the Philippines with my whole family. I’ve meet relatives I didn’t know existed. we got to know each other and we just all clicked. My days were filled with laughter, joy and lots and lots of jokes. Best of all, I met this beautiful person again after several  years.

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It just helps me

I have been spending a lot of time at the gym lately. It keeps me from thinking too much about what could happen. It keeps me out of stress and worries. Even though, it’s just temporary, it is a time I’m never going to change for anything else. I know that all worrying do to me is drain me of today’s energy, but I have no button to deactivate it.


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New hair, new me

I cut my hair a few days ago. It’s been two years since I had a haircut, so my hair was really long when I came at the salon. It was a shame that it had to be done, but it feels good to have a big change once in a while. So now, I only have half of the length of the hair I once had.


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